I ruined my Life, i had so much going for me, i dropped out of school because my idiot 17 year old self thought trading was a good career and i would "make it", grandparents passed away i got $45k, lost $10k of that trading then i quit trading at 18 and just did nothing, i got into gambling heavy and lost the rest of the money, ($45k) total + another $15k in loans, im gonna KMS, i have no job, i have like 2 friends i talk/message with once a month, there's no point to live, I had so much potential i was in a good school, my parents and my sibling is amazing and i love them so much, my entire family is great, and im such a stupid degenerate gambling lazy idiot, i'm usually really nice and considerate but over the last few months i have stopped caring and don't care about being inconsiderate to random strangers which feels like the humanity in me and my soul is dying, i hate my life so much i can't fucking believe this happened, 2 years ago i thought i would do so many great things, i…