My friends and family have either left me or dead. My mother died from diabetes complications when I was 7. My dad committed suicide when I was 16. My grandmother and aunt love me but are very overbearing. A friend had given me many mixed signals. Gone, then back. Gone, then back. Over and over and over again. Just recently my best friend cut everyone out of her life because she thinks her bf is more important. She even put a restraining order on her family when they did nothing wrong. I just want people to stay. Is that really so much to ask for? I'm sick of having my heart trampled on. I fear who will leave next because at this point it feels like the only certainty in my life.