It started with my heart racing Press enter or click to view image in full size Photo by Jared Rice on Unsplash At first, it felt like panic attacks. My heart would suddenly start pounding, and I would feel as if something was terribly wrong. It was frightening in a way that is hard to explain unless you have felt your own heart behave in a way that makes you question whether you are safe inside your own body. Then came the hospital visits. Again and again, I found myself trying to understand what was happening. There were EKGs, echocardiograms, more tests, more questions, more waiting, and more fear. Eventually, after months of this, I received a diagnosis and was asked to see a rhythm specialist. By then, I was exhausted. Not just physically exhausted, but emotionally and spiritually tired. This had been happening for months, and I could no longer pretend it was only about my heart. Something deeper was going on. My body was trying to get my attention. I know that the body keeps the score.…