I feel like the harder I try to get better, the worse I fail at it so I end up taking 2 steps back for every step I take forwards. Sometimes I can’t even manage to complete my personal bare minimums, which is to literally shower, brush my teeth, and eat at least once a day. I genuinely struggle to do just these 3 things every day. I’m afraid of trying to do any more than that because I get burnt out very easily (such as taking out the trash, which requires an unnecessarily insane amount of motivation) and also bc I don’t want to face the disappointment of being unable to keep it up for longer than a day or two. Not to mention that I’m currently unemployed bc I wasn’t able to hold down my last 2 jobs due to my severe mental health issues.