Anxiety destroyed me. I never really knew how to stop it. I was an amazing kid, played soccer and studied hard. I was so pure and smart, caring, kind. However, my issues started at a very young age: I saw my father only a couple of times in my life and my mother wasn’t ever really there for me. I never felt truly loved. I started drinking with mates at around 14 and never really stopped. Back then and now as well, I drink only once a week or a couple of times a month. Basically, what happened with me is that I developed an anxiety at such a young age; it was a weed induced trauma and psychotic attack which I never recovered from. Since then, I was not in a serious relationship, I have an anxiety whenever I meet someone new, my heart beats like crazy, I am shaking and sweating and etc. I can only feel secure and confident when I am drunk, well I used to be, but lately whenever I drink I feel much worse too.…