I am finishing secondary school, I’ve always had excellent grades and still do, but it’s all because I study a lot in pressure and I’m intelligent academically speaking. The problem is, I can’t get myself to focus on class, nor I can do simple things like washing my face every day or going to the gym twice a week if the discomfort doesn’t overcome the reward. I have acknowledged this and have several times tried to fix it, sometimes I get the motivation to do it and do these things 2-3 weeks, then they start to look really energy consuming again and I stop again. I really love the violin, and nature decided to make me good at it, for what I’m really grateful, but I got really fixated on it 2 years and then it also started to not be as “fun”? And I started skipping it too so I’m not improving and that makes me sad. Everything in my life works this way. I don’t know if i’m just lazy but I really want to change it.…