I am so tired I honestly feel like i keep hitting the same brick wall everyday. Lets say something happens or im having a depressive episode or anything out of the average ordinary happens and i hit a 180 loop and start crashing out or feeling extremely devoid of all emotion and i stay like that for god knows how long it honestly depends, but the second i do i forget about all that happened?? And suddenly i think everything is shits and giggles for like half a day and nothing went wrong and theres nothing to stress about and then one minor thing happens again and i go back to my depressive episode and i keep hitting that same wall over and over again and im just so tired. I wanna say i never learn from my mistakes but that feels like wrong wording so i really dont know how to phrase this.…