Apathy has ruined my life. I'm not a person who reacts much. My emotions are very shallow from a young age.

I don't know why I'm so blunted out emotionally. I don't experience regret or sadness in a normal way.

The only basic emotions I feel are anger, happiness a kind of empty sadness.

A majority of the time whatever I do experience is shallow and washed away immediately.

I was never academically motivated, so didn't study much. And during the college application time, u have almost no grades or accomplishments that I can use to apply.

I have few friends, no direction or future if i go on in this way. I can't even afford to go to a psychiatrist.

My life is really underwhelming and boring. The emptiness I feel is crushing. It's almost like my brain was wired like this from the beginning.

I want to expirience things like all the others do. I'm tired of this pathetic lifestyle.