Can somebody explain this I don't know what's happening Well, it's clearly a bunch of things. It seems like I was fine until when I was 9, I started struggling with depression. Then, it just changed, and became a bunch of other mental health issues. But, not important. It's many things. First, I think I'm having an existential crisis. I constantly question if the people around me or this world are even real. I also keep experiencing depersonalization. But now, the worst side of things. First, I keep feeling paranoid. Like something is watching me, or about to kill me, even though there is clearly nothing happening. Or these random horribly unrealistic thoughts. Like I might start randomly having the thought that my mother got possessed, is watching me, and is about to rip my lungs out. Second, I have these violent thoughts. Like I have very detailed, and graphic thoughts about brutally murdering people around me. And I don't even dislike them. They feel and sound nice.…