In an endless mental cycle of “this is how your brain works” -> “that’s not an excuse” I feel so defeated. I’m in this endless loop in my head where I do something (forget, put off, misread) and it causes real consequences in my life that then by proxy cause problems for those around me. On one hand I feel so helpless to these actions, it feels like sometimes for the life of me I just CANT do what I need to do. On the other hand, it’s simply not an excuse and I understand that I need to be accountable for my own symptoms. I guess I just don’t understand where to place my frustrations other than on myself. It feels like I have a disorder that just actively inconveniences myself and those around me. Like my brain is working against me and there’s nothing I can do about it other than follow behind it and try and put out the fires it causes. Or I guess it’s not “it”, it’s me —it’s fires that I cause.…