Being attractive yet extremely mentally ill is such a painful experience On paper, people seem to think I have it all- objectively (even though I can't see it) I am attractive as a guy. I get hit on , people tell me I am attractive, to the point I can't deny it. Besides the myriad of mental health issues that come with being significantly above average attractiveness, I have Autism, ADHD, OCD, BPD, atleast that's what my diagnoses/suspected diagnoses are. Truth is my mental state is so fluid it's impossible to maintain any relationship with anybody. I want nothing more than love yet socializing is extremely difficult for me, when it should be easy. I'm attractive so I make friends with ease because of the halo effect, yet they are all surface level and drift once I act like myself more.…