I want to develop a more mindful presence. I need to become more indifferent to life, and to accept that I can only control so much of life's outcomes. I have really, really big goals in life. And I'm so focused on them that the feeling of not achieving these goals brings me great anxiety every day. I tend to forget that I simply can't control the future. But successful people always preach "enjoying the journey" because reaching the goal itself is only satisfactory for a moment until you find something else to chase. Yet I seem to be completely incapable of simply "enjoying the journey". Whenever I try to enjoy the process and live in the moment it feels like I lose track of the end goal, the bigger vision. It feels like enjoying the journey actually distracts me and slows me down. Because what if my unhappiness is what's moving me? What if enjoying the journey would make me no longer desire the goal I set in the first place?…