I feel like I’m letting everyone down, I just want to die. I’m seeing out the rest of this week and then I want to swallow the rest of my syraquil. I’m fucking done, this world is going to shit, half my family doesn’t even talk to me at all. I hate myself and the way my body looks. I feel like I can’t get away from the long term psychological effects of trauma. This is just bullshit, im tired of trying to push on.