I’m a 40 year old male from dublin, Ireland. i have been suicidal the past 6 years. I keep hanging on for something good to happen. some times I get little bits of happiness, but i have constant dread inside me and fear that I will never be happy. it’s a daily occurrence and I feel the only way is suicide. Every day the feeling gets stronger. I try help people to make me feel better. I have lots of hobbies and interests but I am always questions myself. I can’t even look the mirror. Any know what I can do?