And other ways I’ve used uncertainty to stay stuck Press enter or click to view image in full size Credit- CHATGPT “I need to know why things turn out the way they do.” Not in a curious, philosophical, isn’t-life-mysterious kind of way. In a desperate, won’t-let-me-sleep, replay-the-same-thought-at-7am kind of way. Of all the things I could have been, of all the directions my life could have taken ,I am here. And I need to understand why. Not because the answer will change anything. But because if I had the answer, I’d have the recipe. And if I had the recipe, I’d have control. And control ,I’ve slowly, reluctantly come to accept-is the thing I want more than almost anything else. And this is not a comfortable thing to know about yourself. The asymmetry I can’t stop noticing When I trace my achievements, I always find something outside myself to credit. Good parents. A stable upbringing. Resources that were never guaranteed but always there.…