As much as I try to focus on myself and love myself it just never works. I don’t feel like I’m worth anything. No one has really loved me for me. I have to beg for people to even acknowledge me, I envy people that are happy and loved. I’m tired of crying. It’s my birthday and I’m all alone, my one friend cancelled on me last minute and doesn’t want to be my friend anymore because I got sad and told them I didn’t want to be alone on my birthday. I want to end it all but I’m scared. But I consider doing it a lot more than I should. I just wish I can be happy.