It's all about balance. I got hop back into the director's seat for one rehearsal, and my adrenal gland finally caught on. Inertia falls away and action rushes to fill the void. Euphoria comes from juggling too many things - the vision clears and the mind leaps to the correct decisions without all the waffling and debating. It was glorious.<br /><br />With great freedom comes great flexibility, and with a multitude of choices comes paralysis. I never thought I'd freeze up, but here I am: staring at the buffet and letting others cut ahead of me because I can't decide what to eat. I have opportunities that I never thought I'd have, and a part of me is stuck frittering away life fulfilling someone else's creative vision and limiting my horizons to someone else's world view.<br /><br />I choose to be better than I am now. I choose to pay attention to what's important to me. I choose to speak and write and think and create and do and enjoy. I choose.…