MORE ABOUT ME Finding a name for a feeling. Press enter or click to view image in full size Photo by Bear Kosik From beginning to end. I have been living a manic existence for four and a half years in response to situational depression. The symptoms have been splurging on things for weeks, months, and years without much thought and not having a regular sleep routine. The problems started in August 2021 when I was producing a three-week residency of Between Panic and Desire at The Players Theatre in NYC. After the first weekend of performances, I was hospitalized with what turned out to be dysentery and a blood infection. For three days, nothing they gave me was treating the problem. Meanwhile, I was in more pain than when I shattered my left patella in 2016. Finally, some antibiotic started working. The infectious diseases doctor said I was one day away from becoming a research paper. I missed all of the remaining performances. Someone I trust told me that the last night the actors killed it.…