Is there any psychological definition for it? My mind at times wants to commit su\*\*\*de, but my heart wants to live and experience freedom and happiness because it believes that I deserve to live and see myself living the life I manifest now. But due to academic pressure I couldn't. At one phase I completely confined myself to my room. I used to not comb my hair for 4 days straight, did not shampoo for weeks.I did not arrange my bed or change the sheets. I kept windows and doors closed. I did not clean my bathroom and toilet for months, so much that black mold covered the floor and basin. Also my toilet was all dirty. The clothes I kept in a bucket developed fungus and got torn at points. The drain was clogged and used to overflow.Yes I used to bathe in that condition.The fruits I did not eat and kept somewhere in the almirah, rotted, and maggots grew in them. My room was infested with mosquitoes and fruitflies.I did not care about cleaning it. I found my life static there.…