i took a job delivering pizzas for dominos. i went in for 2 hours the other day for training videos and felt so anxious being there or having to ask people questions.

tonight i have my first shift from 4-10pm😭

i haven't worked in 2 years and social interaction makes me panic.

im scared of not knowing what im doing and looking dumb

i'm scared of not knowing the right math for giving back change on orders

i'm scared of making sure i go to the right house and knock in a normal way

i'm scared i wont know where im going

i'm scared my co workers wont like me

i'm scared ill embarrass myself

im scared ill hate it and want to run away

im laying in bed paralyzed, havent eaten or drank anything all day. need to shower. need to brush my teeth. but am frozen and i can't get up.

i don't want to do this

it feels so unfair what i have to put myself through to make money