Called in sick today and yesterday. It's only April and I've already gone through most of my paid sick days. I'm afraid of being seen as unreliable and I feel like that wouldn't be too much of a stretch. Life for me is just constant misery at the moment. I feel like crap all the time. I have online friends, and yet I feel so lonely. I'm incredibly socially anxious so my ability to make irl friends is practically zero. Life just doesn't even feel worth it at this point. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I just want to get it out somewhere.