So tired, so sick and tired (life long sufferer) advice wanted TW for discussion of severe mental illness, hospitalisation, brief mention of previous crisis Literally my whole life I have been suffering from one anxiety disorder or another. I have always had generalised anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety, and had bouts of separation anxiety and agoraphobia, as well as OCD. It has never left me. Some of my earliest memories all have anxiety in them. I’m 19 and starting to think I will never be free from this agony. It’s so sad to spend your entire life afraid. Your world gets narrower and narrower, everything positive is turned to a negative. Anxiety for me is the devil I can never run from. All psychiatrists and psychologists say it’s ’how I am’ because of my autism. I actually am struggling so hard. I’ve been on nearly every SSRI, along with other medication, and it helps but not nearly enough. I have had CBT god knows how many times. It’s never really worked.…