I relapsed today I’m 14(m) and I’ve had a really tough couple of years I’ve been bullied and had multiple people comment on my body hair face and like 4 months ago a close friend of mine died. It lead me to have super super bad panic attacks and scratch+cut my arms and legs recently I started not getting as bad panic attacks and sh urges then I found out my gf was cheating on me and when I broke up with her she accused me of hitting her and trying to do things to her ( I 100% did not) I broke up with her on holiday and I he next night this girl started hitting on me and dancing with me we later snogged and I didn’t feel super bad as my ex had been cheating on me when I got back from school her and friends all started being super super mean talking loads of shit this then lead me to start having panic attacks and then today I started doing **it** again I don’t know what to do as now it’s not cat scratches I went deeper than ever before and I can’t tell anyone cuz I don’t want them thinking different of me.…