I love being autistic!!!!!!! I love who I am, I love the things that excite me, I love feeling things so strongly (sometimes lol), I love being somewhat confusing to other people. I keep seeing videos of that clavicular boy (bear with me) and he seems so ashamed of himself it makes me sad. I love myself so much. On one hand he seems genuinely terrible and tbh I’m sick of seeing conservative white men represent our community but I can’t stop thinking about his admission he does drugs to feel neurotypical (which I heard online so idk how true it is + I only half believe). I’ve gone through phases of self hatred and especially as a kid I hated myself. I can’t help imagining the sad autistic boy he must have once been and all the other sad autistic boys who may be influenced by him. I know I’m projecting but I just wish people like him could feel the joy and pride I feel.